결혼식 9일 남기고 파혼

I'm so distraught and don't know what to do. My wedding is in 9 days, is it too late to call off the engagement now? I've been dating my boyfriend for over 3 years. About a hundred days into our relationship, we fought and he hit me. He hit me really hard back then. But the next day, he knelt down and begged me to forgive him, crying. The reason for the fight the day before was my fault, so seeing him cry, I softened up and forgave him, and we continued dating. However, after that, he continued to hit me about once a month whenever we fought. Each time, he apologized the next day, and I forgave him again. But on our 2nd anniversary, he hit me so badly that I decided I didn't want to live like this anymore and broke up with him. He kept begging me to forgive him and clung to me, but I was truly determined to break up then, so I firmly refused. But with his persistent apologies and promises that it wouldn't happen again, I decided to give him one last chance, thinking I'd trust him one last time. After that, he really didn't hit me anymore. We dated beautifully after that, he proposed, and we finished all our wedding preparations... But yesterday, we fought, and he hit me again. I thought he had completely changed, but was I mistaken? When I think about living with him and being hit after marriage, I'm debating whether I should call off the engagement now. But if I do, I'm already overwhelmed thinking about the money spent on wedding preparations and the shame I'll face from my parents, friends, relatives, and acquaintances. What should I do? ㅠㅠ

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남친이랑 사귄지 3년 넘었어요

사귀고서 백일 조금 넘었을때 다투다가 저때렸고요. 그때 되게 심하게 맞았었어요. 근데 다음날 용서해달라고 남친이 울면서 무릎꿇고 빌었고 전날 다툰 이유가 제가 잘못해서 다툰거라 우는 남친모습에 마음 약해져서 용서하고 계속 만났어요

근데 그후에 거의 한달정도 간격으로 계속 남친이 다툴때마다 때렸고 그때마다 다음날 사과하고 저는 또 용서하고 그랬는데 사귄지 2주년때 남친이 너무 심하게 때려서 그때는 저도 더이상 이렇게 맞으며 살고 싶지 않아서 이별통보했어요. 남친이 용서해달라고 계속 매달리고 사정사정했지만 저도 그때는 진짜 헤어질 마음이었고 그래서 단호하게 거절했어요

그치만 남친의 끈질긴 사과와 다시는 안그러겠다는 말에 마지막으로 믿어보자는 생각으로 다시 받아줬고 그 이후에는 남친은 정말 절 안때렸어요.

그렇게 예쁘게 잘 사귀다 청혼받고 결혼하려고 결혼식 준비도 다 끝냈는데....

근데 어제 남친이랑 다투다가 또 맞았네요. 남친이 완전히 변했다 생각했는데 착각이었나요. 결혼후에 계속 맞으며 살 생각을 하니 지금이라도 파혼해야 하나 고민이 됩니다. 막상 파혼하자니 이미 결혼식 준비하며 쓴 비용이며 부모님 , 친구, 친척, 주변 지인들한테 망신당할 생각에 벌써부터 막막해요. 어쩌면 좋죠? ㅠㅠ