We just finished talking it out, but I don't know why I feel so weird right now.

We've been dating for 3 years. We're both super career-driven and have similar personalities, so we never really fought much, and marriage eventually came up. I was so sure he was 'the one' that I never imagined we'd run into a problem like this.

But reality is a different story. We both saved up a lot, but a place in Seoul is a pipe dream, and we're getting pushed further and further into the Gyeonggi outskirts. Right now, we both live near our respective offices, and the thought of the commute if we move in together is just terrifying.

He brought it up first today. He asked if we really need to move in together right away—saying we’re happy and doing well as we are now.

I felt grateful. I’d been thinking the same thing but couldn't bring myself to say it. Every time I look at mortgage interest rates, I feel like I'm suffocating, so this is the rational choice.

We have a lot of trust in each other. We mostly see each other on weekends, but even otherwise, we're the type to just drop by unannounced if we miss each other.

But walking back into my apartment, I feel strange. It's the same familiar view I see every day... but the thought that 'it's going to stay like this' just hit me. I'm not depressed or sad—if I were, I would've insisted on living together—it's just a really weird feeling.

I have stuff to take care of at work tomorrow so I need to sleep, but I'm just sitting here drinking beer alone. Am I being too emotional? It makes sense rationally, so why do I feel like this? Are there any other couples out there who made this kind of choice?